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Monday, October 31, 2011

0 ^Friendship^


Do you trust friendship?
Do you know what is friendship?
I do. I always treasure it!

What is friendship?
Some people won't know the meaning of friendship.
They think friendship is friends are people you think are friends,
but they are enemies with secret identities and disguises who hide their true colours.
They never trust friendship!

From the day i know what is friendship,
i appreciate so much the relationship between friends.
So God give me so much experience in the friendship.
Sometimes, He give me joy. Sometimes, He give me pain.
But this is only the process between friendship.
We can make difference among those friends.
Nobody is perfect!

Yesterday, i tell one of my friends.
I say "i love you". She can't accept.
I know that. Because eastern people are more traditional and not so opened.
"I love you" has many meanings actually.
Love you as family, lover, fiancee or friends.
Sometimes i envy those western people, when they greet each other, they will hug or kiss each other.
It shows a kind of warm or love.

When i am in Penang trip, i meet my old friend!
I do miss her. I think we never meet each other after form 5!
She is my best friend, and totally when we meet each other, we still like before.


We laugh and tease each other. There are a lot of memories between us that will never be forgotten.
But the words from her i remember most is when she notices me, she say "Can i have a hug?"
Wow! Is such a warm hug i never had.

When i in home, i seldom hug my mum, but once i hug her, i feel protected.
And i seldom say i love her, because sometimes the words difficult to express. Is too deep in the heart.
But once i message and tell her, she replies " i love you too".
That's the time i touched and my tears start unable to control.
Even my sis, i want to hug her, and she says "yurks!", ask me to go away.
It shows a kind of love, but for her its unacceptable!
My bro shows his love by buying the things i want! Laptop! He sponsors! Touched!
I have a happy family. My dad, my mum, my two brothers, my sis and even my grandma. They love me! And i love them too.
Too long didn't take picture with them. T_T.
Gonna go back soon and i will remember to take once!



And even friends too. We give them a warm hug, it shows love.
Don't be stingy to give other's love.
A hug is worth than thousand words. Remember that.
Hug is not kind of sex or need to be used when sex.
It is just a simple hug. NOT sensitivity.

I have a lot of friends. Can you imagine?
How i do this? Why i can have it? Just show a simple "LOVE"
Do you hear before? To be depressed is to be lonely; To have a friend is to be happy.
I did it. And you? Still don't want to show love?
Let you see my crazy friends!
But we seldom meet because all of us have to further our studies in different kind of places.






I have a lot of friends and i also have a lot of sis around me!
Love are surrounded me and i feel happy enough!
I treat many people who smaller than me as my sis even i have a stupid sis!
They are the people i love most! I was greedy enough to have them!
My sis is the people who close to me most. We quarrel, we laugh, we fight!
I know her well indeed. She is the most cruel sis in this world.
If people who don't know her, they will think she is good.
If you know her deeply, you sure will kill her and chop her into pieces!
If i am a killer, sure i dare to chop her!



Nowadays, i am closer to this sis.
If u first thinking about her, you will say this people is not easy to close with.
Ya. That's my first thinking!
But now i realize that she is much more crazy than before.
And she is quite good enough because she treats me good even we always quarrel.
Last time, she is negative on her thought and now i know why she think negatively.
The surroundings influence her and maybe she is still young to solve the problem.


Another sis, she is talent in chinese yoyo. But i am not because of that interested her.
The 1st time i see her, is the time got people bully her.
From that time, i start to message her everyday but we are not couples.
We just easy to talk with and the feelings are nice!
Sometimes maybe misunderstanding with each other, but now we settle it.
And i hope i can have chance to love her more.
Sorry for that day i scold you. I just care about you and hope you will know one day.


And another three, i treat them like my sis too.
They are good and easily bullied by me. Haha.
But three of them gather together and try to bully me, sure i will lose!
Sometimes, they will find me. But after chatting, sure i can't get back to the room because they are too talkative!
So, nowadays i just stay in my room! hahahaha!
I try to message them but their phone number are 017!
I cant afford to pay that! So expensive per message.


Another sis, she says i never care for her! I really.......
If you are with her, you will know the feeling.
She talks nonstop and i don't have any freedom!
But she is nice to others and she is too naive!
She always think from others but never think of herself.
Do you see her laugh before? or cry before?
She is the person lack of protection!


And these few days, i always message a girl.
I scare she will think i like her because i find her always! Oops!
I want to treat her as sis(妹妹), but she wants to be sis(姐姐)!
Crazy human i think. She always make me nothing to talk with.
She is too brilliant. She can catch every words you say and make you shut up!
And she is the one always no reply my message! No manner at all!
Hahaha. I think she won't mind what i say. Because this is the truth!
Never take picture with her so no picture. But hope got chance to take with her!
If you don't mind, be my sis! I have so many sis to love!

I have a sis who love me too!
She gives me an original cd of Jess Lee which import from Taiwan!
And she always brings me here and there! I love her! Really!
The ring on my finger is the present from her! I miss you, Lanice!

Thanks everybody! Thanks sis!
The best gift i ever had!


I don't have lover but i have so many friends around me.
I don't scare i will be alone.
I just know they are the most precious thing i never had!
Thank you everyone who appear in my life and give me the best memories!
Sorry if i don't write about you because i have too many friends need to appreciate it!
The world is so complicated but all of you make my life wonderful!

Friends, when you face the problems or obstacles,
Sadness, grief or even doubt,
When you mess up all the things that you planned on,
just turn around and look behind you.
From the place you stand,
Look for me through the shadows,
i will lend you my hand.
I will give you my shoulders,
I will right beside you
Though it will be a thousand years!

Friendship is the golden thread that ties all hearts together.
Don't walk on front of me, i may not follow~
Dont walk behind me i may not lead~
Just walk beside me and be my friend."



Sunday, October 30, 2011

0 把最好的留给家人!

累了。困了。想歇一歇。
给我一点空气呼吸一下。
请不要逼我逼得太紧
毕竟我也是人。

我只想给自己权力去选择
我知道之前我做了不应该做的事,
我知道我犯了不该犯的事
但如果没这么做,你们同样推我去死
我只能为自己找个后路。

请容许我绝点,我真的看开这世界
你对人家好,人家只会爬到你头上
我真的有时帮累了,帮了还惹上不少蚂蚁
我要扫掉那些蚂蚁还真难。

我知道我讲话一向来很直,
很多人接受不了这一套
我自己也接受不了
如果要我改,我宁愿不说话,
因为本性难改,改也是一样。

请不要考验我的忍耐度
我发疯时什么都做得出
我真的不想顾虑那么多
因为换来的只有自己的委屈

不要觉得我没脾气,我不会怎样
就考验我的极限。我只是不想把痛苦建立在别人身上!
以后你们的事我不再插手
你们要怪我也好,利用我也好。

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妈,我真的好想回家。
我真的好累。不知不觉也快半年了。
要等也要等到十一月二十五才能回家。
想想为什么间隔我不回。
因为你们要付我们两姐妹的费用。
加上老爸也退休了,妹妹也好想回因为她放假两个星期
所以就给她回了。这样也好,妹妹可以回去看你们

以前在家,要什么有什么,
现在什么都得靠自己,累了也没有依靠。
事情无法解决了,还是要想办法解决
原来长大是那么辛苦的。
谁想长大?谁想面對这一切?我觉得没有!
当我每天听到别人埋怨的时候,我心想没人要这样的生活
别人看得到我活得开心,我的确很开心
因为我的心态是过了算了,没必要计较
但有时心很痛,要发泄也没地方发泄。
有时妹妹总会突然发脾气,然后乱乱骂我
其实我自己也有不开心的事。
我告诉妹妹你很累是吗? 你把脾气发泄在我身上我也是很累的
我哭了。因为我真的好心痛。我不喜欢莫名奇妙给人家骂
我妹说“原谅我,我知道我不好”。她说她在这里好压力
难到你们都有,我没有吗?
我只是看开了,我只是觉得开心活着,那不是很好吗?
再多的难题是上天给的考验,不是吗?

妈,你知道吗?那天的手球比赛,我告诉你我脸被打到
我知道你很担心,一直问我有事吗。
对。看了医生,医生说脑震荡,会维持三四天
你骂我,叫我以后不要打这样的球。
我只能说我太幸运被球打中。
现在我不敢告诉你,我还再痛。我觉得已经是内伤了。
从喉咙伤到脑袋,真的是辛苦死了!
我不知如何开口告诉你。
我每次不懂花了你们多少钱。
保险也是我最快买,难怪婆婆说,以后我要还比较多。
的确,以后我一定要孝顺你们。
之前的不孝,我很后悔。让你们受多了委屈。
只怪我不争气,只怪我耳根软。还好我会清醒!

婆婆老了,不知还能陪我们多久
真的好想回去看看她。
大学读了好久,没什么时间陪你们
真的是受尽了不少委屈。
现在只能让你们不担心。这已足够了。
也谢谢你们让我有个幸福的家庭。
我不缺爱,不缺钱,什么都不缺。我缺的只是时间。

你们老了,我也长大了,要学会独立了。
上天给我机会活着,我就该做有意义的事。
这才是人生。现在我只知道做好事,存好心。
家人都做善事,我也要。
活了那么多年了,我该想想自己未来的路了。

我想当游泳教练,行的通吗?
希望能,希望有这个机会!
这样我就会赚更多钱,带你们去玩。
你们要好好照顾自己,这样我才能带你们去更多地方。
好久没一家人出去玩了自从去中国香港后。
妈,我知道你等不及了。要我赶快出來赚钱。我会的!
如果能,我会继承你的保险。

爱家人多点吧!父母等不及我们出來孝顺他们了。

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