0 My dearest brother....

Tears flowing. Heart cracking.

I am so hurt today.

Why this thing happen again?

Unbelievable! Unacceptable!

I try to accept, i try and i try!

But i just can't! I try to stop crying!

But i just can't! Why happen such thing?

One is my brother, one is my ....

Brother, you are always my dearest brother.

First, i really blame you, i hate you!

Why you want to separate with her? Why?

Actually, mum has sixth sense knowing that something happen between both of you.

And mum ask me whether i got chatting with your gf.

So, today i ask your gf what happen?

She says both of you have separated 3 months ago!

Why? Why you never tell us?

You have to face it one day too!

I blame you because you don't take good care of her, you hurt her!

I hate guy doing such thing! No responsibility.

Ya. Suddenly i hate you so much! Hate!

Where is my good er ge? Why do such things!

Brother, when i message you and know the truth, i cry again.

I know what you are thinking about.

I hate myself for blaming you.

I never think about you.

You are the best among all the siblings.

You have a strong heart to win and never want to lose others.

In house, you are the one get full As in UPSR, PMR, SPM.

And now you get the 1st honor in your engineering.

Everybody proud of you. You want to prove that you are an useful people.

Dad and mum always hope you can get the best achievement.

Ya. You did it successfully.

Now you earn a lot but you never happy.

Why you got things you never want to express?

I am your sister that can help you to solve some problems.

You are the best in the house. But i am the worst in the house.

Then my feeling? I got my own stress too.

I try to believe that even my academic is not good as you or sis or bro, I can earn a lot of money too.

Don't force yourself to make everything perfect.

You must think of yourself before you think of others.

Because of the responsibility, Because of the family, Because of her father's death

you try to recover with your gf and try to get back the feelings.

But now you are not happy at all, so you just let her go.

You tell me you scare to come back home because you disappointed the family.

This is the first time i see you are so worried.

I tell you, "You must return home, family wont leave his son alone".

Just now i call mum and she tells me that you cry nonstop.

I know your pain, your sorrow.

Brother, you make me cry and your gf did too.

I appreciate the relationship between us and i don't want to miss it.

But now everything spoiled and can't get back anymore.

If recall back the memories, i will cry again.

So many laughter with her, So many memories!

I can't forget it at all. I treat her as my sis.

I hurt so much today. And mum too.

She can't sleep tonight but what can i do?

Dad too. He is sick but i can't do nothing too.

I want to go back! Bro, i want to meet you!

You are my dearest brother ever after.

Don't fall down first k? We give you support.

Now you are lonely there and you always keep your things alone, nobody care for you.

You go overseas nonstop but please care for yourself k?

I don't want something happen in the house!

Mum and dad are old enough! If you fall down, dad n mum too.

I can't save so many people in one time.

Please! This useless sister hope you can think for the family k?

I don't want anything anymore. I don't want you to sponsor me this and that.

I just want my brother back. I don't want to lose you.

So pain today. I want you happy with us again.

Brother, i know you want perfect but you can't do everything you want.

You already make us proud. Dun force yourself again. Please!

You have succeed in your career! If you want to earn more, no need!

I am going to earn money soon. Just wait for me!

Wait me back. I give you my my-vi car to drive.

I bring you to eat supper, i bring you to anywhere you want to go.

You tell me before, when i am graduated, you will bring me to Singapore.

So, don't fall down. I won't talk about your relationship anymore.

I just hope everything will be ok.

Tissue is not enough for me anymore. Brother, i love you and i miss you!

0 New design..

Oops! Why my background is in pink?

Unbelievable! Actually i hate pink!

I really hate pink. But now i still can accept a little bit.

Because the header of the blog is quite blank, light in colour.

So i try to use blue in d background but it is not suitable.

So i use pink.

i always want a fresh look for the blog.

So i change my background twice a year.

I easily hate something and i like new things.

So i always waste money on buying this and that.

I like original things like Nike.

I got sport shoes for three hundred something. I got bag. I got shorts! I got bottle!

Oops! i have to stop it!

Anybody know why i hate pink?

Because it looks so girlish, and so many girls like it.

And i always want to be special and i like peace.

So i prefer blue in colour. It gives me energy sometimes.

I love blue if compares to others.

These few days i write my blog in English.

Because i like English and i hate Chinese actually.

When i am Form 4, i write an essay and that essay gets high mark.

The teacher don't believe at all and ask me whether i copy from where or not.

From that day on, i really hate people who look down at me.

I hate Chinese and she makes me hate Chinese more.

I like to watch Western Movie if compare to Taiwan Movie or Hong Kong Movie.

I always learn English from there. And i enjoy watching it.

Even the western movie are much more rude words than others.

Such as "Fuck", "Suck", "Screw up". Or many sex scenes.

This is the western style, western cultures.

Sex is not a dirty thing actually.

Nowadays, many students are curious about this things.

Some boys maybe want to try what is that because they feels strange enough.

So, if newspapers write "Students get molested or raped in younger age", i don't feel strange at all.

Parents need to play the main role to give the right concept to their children.

They need to know what is sex and protect themselves.

So, parents can't blame them if parents never tell them about sex.

Oops, i am out of topic!

I like my blog in a simple way.

I like to find out what decorations are better for my blog.

I like to explore new things and i like to learn something new.

Do you ever run out from house? I did

Do you ever do direct sales and introduce the products to strangers? I did

Do you ever give speech in front of your mum and show love in front of hundred people? I did

Do you ever angry your headmistress in front of her? I did.

I do so much crazy things! i am totally too bad! How come i can be a teacher?

I also can't believe at all!

My dad hopes i can be a teacher, and now i fulfill his dream!

And why my blog got so many gadgets?

I think that gadgets are quite cute!

It gives me joy and it makes the background more colourful.

Do you think so? Hehe..

Don't want to introduce my new design anymore.

I am gonna study now! Miracle happens!

Wow! If you like my blog, just come here and we make friends!

Hehe. Good luck to everybody!