2 四月十九－意义的生日！

今年我二十三岁了。

这个岁数算还年轻吧！

但不知不觉我来到这世界也二十三年了。

我珍惜这段岁月，有好多好多的回忆。

 二十三岁的我+堂妹！

回想起我第一次庆祝生日应该是我一岁时吧！
我只看到照片，但没什么记忆。

那个照片是我老爸抱着我，我一边吃鸡腿的照片，我超爱那张照片！

那张照片还在我的照相簿里，那时我老爸好年轻哦！

过了二十三年了，我老爸也慢慢变老了。我只能看着岁月把我老爸青春夺走了！

之前我父母说过，生日只会让你变老，他们都没什么庆祝，我们也不用庆祝。

最可怜的还是我妹，每次看我收好多礼物，她只能在那里羡慕说：“为什么我的生日会在放假？”

所以每年我都会帮她庆祝，买她喜欢的东西。她是我唯一的亲生妹妹，有时一定要疼的。

这次的生日我最开心的应该是我有个幸福的家庭。

我父母都是很成功的人士，他们真的是含辛茹苦的养我们四个兄弟姐妹长大。

老爸以前养猪赚钱到现在的承包商，一定很不容易吧！

老妈以前小小的公务人员，赚那区区九百块钱，薪水没起，到从业保险职业，真的超赞！

我一直向你们看起，你们做了很好的榜样，我也要慢慢做起，不想一步登天。

现在我们家经济没问题也是靠我老爸的努力吧！真的需要感恩。

我老爸真的很照顾家庭，他真的是绝世好男人。“不抽不赌不喝” 是他的风范。

我很爱这完美的家庭，我应该要惜福，不是每个人都拥有的东西。

我最爱的父母

今年的生日是最后一年在大学度过吧！

一转眼也五年了。真的好快！ 我的实习也要告一段落了。

我还能陪这些人多久呢？会永远吧！

我在大家的印象中是好是坏，我也不知道。我只知道我尽力了！

五年内改变很多吧！

四月十九日，是我的生日。生日还没到之前，也就是四月八日，我有一位从来没看过的朋友，但对她感觉还不错的朋友，约了出去。

大家都是薇迷，所以没戒心就跟她们一起去唱k了！

那时我还叫我另一个朋友陪我，我怕她们把我吃掉！

她们就在cs的neway等待我的来到。（哈哈哈！大牌的我）

跟她们的感觉真的是很轻松，很开心。一起来唱歌！

我一坐下时，看到别人有好多吊饰哦，我竟然没有！我就好奇的问，那是什么东西。

就是这些吊饰啦！

竟然她们说没我的份！过后Jace就拿了一个纸袋装了东西便递给我。 她说：“生日快乐！”

哇！我第一次见你，你就送我礼物！好开心哦！过后我们都乐在其中，她们竟然都在欺负我！接着，我拿朋友的电话来看，竟然她放了跟李佳薇拥抱的照片，我气死了！想摔她电话，她竟然说看礼物先才看要不要丢她电话。没想到是李佳薇亲自签名的会服啊！！

李佳薇亲笔签名会服

这应该很贵吧！过后我们都继续唱歌。当我唱到一半时，竟然播生日歌！我吓到了，我不在状况中， 竟然有人拿蛋糕进来！哇！你们够诚意啊！我可爱的朋友！

第一粒蛋糕

这是我今年生日的第一粒蛋糕，真的很感谢你们抽空帮我庆祝！可恶的是她们把我的头压在蛋糕上！但真的很开心！谢谢那天来到的朋友－Jace, Eugene, Sinyee, Sin chew Yn, Kar wai 和我的好朋友， sherly!

女人帮

一群疯狂薇迷

四月十四日，我与朋友天英还有学妹，燕彬一起去Tebrau Jusco, 那天燕彬请我吃蛋糕，当作我生日礼物。真的是感恩！

Oreo Cheese & New York Cheese!

我们一起去看battleship, 剧情不错，只听到旁边有疯人在喊，哈哈哈！但让我最搞笑的应该是她跟我说的问题吧！还是不说出來好一点。不然她会很内疚。当晚，我其实已知道可能有人要帮我庆祝了，但好奇的是，为什么外面只有晶晶的鞋子，我还是没考虑多就走进去了。竟然有人唱生日歌！哇！好多人啊！突然好感动。她们唱好后，突然有人从一整堆的衣服被单跳了出來，竟然是我好朋友，阿飞！

 就是她啦－阿飞！！

哇！夸张！我真的顿时不知道该说些什么。她说她很忙，没办法来。的确，我们都在实习，她竟然赶完了功课才来！我的确很感动，但说不出话来。她们帮我庆祝了，这是我生日的第二粒蛋糕。最可恶的是她们竟然在我脸上涂cream, 还post去fb!!! 更可恶的是，他们竟然在我头上敲了五粒蛋，晕！！但没什么。生日嘛！真的很谢谢他们－阿飞，晶晶，嘉祺，文慧，黑妹妹，Linda, 思伶。感谢不尽。

她们就是用熟蛋敲我头的！！

天啊！被你们欺负！

一堆疼我的学妹！

四月十九日也就是当天，早上十二点，其实我已睡着了因为不舒服。但那时收到不少人的生日祝福，真的是感动。竟然有那么多人记得我生日。我一点时看到信息的。那时我好饿，找饼干来吃，突然我桌上有留言！我妹送上的留言！哇！刚才我才骂你很吵，原来你想写情信给我！果然是我妹！写的字眼会让我想掉眼泪！

I love my sis!!

 我妹献上的祝福

我睡醒已经是早上五点多左右，突然有一封信息到来， 是亲爱的！她发来跟我说声生日快乐。真的是感觉不错。突然又有人来敲门！庄芯斤！！她来送礼物的！哇！第一次当天收到你们当天给我的礼物！我喜欢！

芯怡，慧珊，天英合买的包包！感恩！

今天来到学校，朋友也跟我说生日快乐！谢了！当然，我今天教的那班学生是恐怖班，但跟我的感情还不赖。很谢谢他们送给我的不少礼物还有自己制作的生日卡！ 你们也太有诚意了吧！虽然你们很吵，但我看到的是你们那份真挚的友情。你们互相扶持，一起吵！！啊！！

学生制作的卡片

学生送的礼物

下午回到去的时候， 好朋友又打来，叫我去hep签收礼物！刚好我去那里时， hep没有人，所以我回去。回到去时，看到我床有些不妥！竟然有个书包还有肥皂！==! 这是什么回事？！谁想整我？！我妹刚好回到，说是燕妃送的！我问我妹，她不是叫我去签收吗？我妹说她骗我的！还好我没去那里签收！阿弥陀佛，还是我妹疼我！阿飞啊，我妹是靠我这里的！哈哈哈！但谢谢你的礼物！哈哈！我喜欢！

阿飞送来的礼物！

接着，突然有人说我车灯没关！天啊！不是吧！还要跑下去关车灯！我好累啊！什么日子啊！当我上来开房间门时，突然，跑来一个学妹－Sherly! 不拿着一粒小蛋糕插着一根蜡烛！哇！这样也能！但还是很感动。你尽心尽力想给我惊喜， 我知道的！也谢谢你的礼物！一本对我有用处的书本！那时我妹又送我一片蛋糕！这样吃下去，我会肥的啊！！

装可爱的Sherly!

Present from Sherly!

由于时间不足够，加上那时下雨，我就载我朋友去看医生，看了过后，就去找我的好姐妹啦－晓宁！她那时好生气我，因为我说过一下子就到她那里，但拖了好久，三四点才到她那里。她好生气哦，躺在床上不理我，哇！我生日啊，竟然弄人家不开心？！不可以啊！过后我便问她我的生日卡在那，她说她没钱买礼物给我，但感动的是她从床底下拿出礼物， 竟然买了两样东西给我！不便宜啊！不是叫你不要乱花钱的吗？！ 我很喜欢你送的礼物！都是我喜欢的颜色！其实今天看到每个人都为我生日付出，我真的很感动。我真的很谢谢我的小宁宁。哈哈哈哈！陪我了不少岁月，我很珍惜这份难得可贵的感情！你送我的那一刹那，我眼眶泛泪了。姐妹就要扶持到永远吧！

来一张！

晓宁送的礼物哦！

突然，又来了一封信息，我无法控制自己的眼泪！好感人的一封信息！你三年以来的生日祝福都让我掉泪了！你是这样写的“Happy Birthday to u. Sorry i didn't buy any present to u. anyway i've bank in RM100.00 to ur mbb a/c.. Buy anything u like, as long as u feel happy. Enjoy yourself, but remember u r one year older, don't waste your time by doing nothing." By my dearest Mum! 她的确是我最爱的妈妈。从来都把我们当作朋友的妈妈，跟她没代沟，只有深感情！下辈子，我要再当你女儿！

My dearest mum!!!

到了晚上，我想去吃好料所以跟四位小妹妹去cs附近驰名的chicken chop店吃鸡排！这一餐还要他们还钱，这不是我要的。哎。可是这鸡排不错！好吃！我们还拍了很多照片呢！喜欢跟她们出去的感觉！舒服又开心！

蘑菇鸡排

好吃！赞！

S.H.E.

 我最白啊！！

谁是最美的？哈哈！中间那位！

之前一直看到其中一位学妹-可丽妹写说，不知道以后我会路了，就不会载她了。 其实我也不想回答她，让时间证明一切吧！也感谢上天让我认识这个人，虽然她脸看起来蛮屌，但久了，觉得还蛮不错！哈哈哈！

这就是可丽妹啦！

吃了回来后，想好好休息了。忙了一整天。但才坐下罢了，突然有封信息来告诉我车厢后面有礼物！但我没立刻去拿。过后又来了一封信息，学妹-Ah teh告诉我李佳薇祝我生日快乐！啊！！！！！！难得啊！她真的来祝福我！我的生日过得真圆满！！这么好的偶像一定要支持下！最值得开心的事应该是她记得我吧！还知道我名字怎样写。。

佳薇献上的生日祝福

佳薇找我合照！哈哈！

接着，学妹－晶晶就叫我出去庆祝，一起去吃！哇！八点了诶！但他们太有诚意了，我又出去吃一顿！真的是很有意义的一天！我们去到了Sutera Mall 的 U Dessert吃了甜品。

甜品来咯！

 Nuggets!!!

偷拿linda的照片！哈哈哈！

间中我突然发现我妹带了我从来没看过的手表。我好奇的问“这手表不到一百吧！九十多是吗？”我妹问我美吗？我说不错啊！她说这手表是你的！我说“啊？！”我没想到这招你们也想得出！这手表是我妹，晶晶跟mj一起合买的！

妹妹，晶晶，MJ 合买的贵重礼物！感恩！

感激不尽！但很开心能再跟你们团聚-笨妹，晶晶，文慧，黑妹妹，Linda!

跟你们的感觉真好！

当然回来就想拆礼物来看看。学妹到底送我什么？！哇！还包得那么美！但打开盒子里，哇！好乱！到底送给我什么啊？！生日卡啊，吊饰啊，还有巧克力啊！你们的诚意我收到了！你们写的字也太感人了吧！今天因为看到好多卡片写的内容，眼泪不知不觉都掉了下来！真的是感动到哭了！陈燕彬，真的是一路来陪我的好伙伴，好姐妹！那侨欣呢，也是我觉得最有性格的女人！这种人可以多交几位，可以教我们成长！能认识你们应该是我的福气！多做好事，会有好人出现！

陈燕彬送来乱七八糟的祝福！哈哈！

可丽妹送的感人卡片！

当然一回到房间，地上有一封信，是好朋友-Bear bear送来的信。还买了吊饰送我。真的我非常喜欢，也会用。虽然我们之前争吵过，而且冷战了好久，但至少现在我们找回了当初的感觉！我珍惜你这位朋友！

狗熊给我的礼物

当初的我们！

时间静悄悄的过了。要四月二十号了，最后的惊喜，学妹又整堆跑进来送我礼物！她们一起合买的衣服。我会穿！你们必须给我时间！哈哈哈！谢谢嘉祺，文慧，Linda, 黑妹妹，Jesslyn买的衣服！喜欢！

衣服！哇！感恩啊！

学妹走了后，突然晶晶递了一张卡片给我！哇！那卡片是刚做好的！不容易！没有白疼她！一路以来我都把她当做妹妹来看待！今天真的过得非常幸福！

赞！经典！哈哈！

要感谢给我祝福的每个人包括面子书的两百五十多个人给的祝福还有我二哥给的祝福！谢谢远方的好友都送上了祝福！

 远方的你们，我想你们了！

好朋友在澳洲献上了祝福！

二哥，这次我不要礼物，我只要你的关怀与疼爱！可是你又买了！但不知道那个是什么！长大了，要替别人想一想。你已经很疼我了。我们要什么你都会给。上次我电脑坏了，你用第一份薪水帮我买下了电脑，真的是铭记到现在！现在大家都长大了，都很少会见到对方，一年也三四次罢了！真的很想你叻！当然还有大哥，但你是不是忘了我生日啊？！我跟你相冲，你也要记得我生日嘛！算了。原谅你！哈哈哈！

 二哥，看！我比你可爱！哈哈哈！

你到底买什么啊？

当然还有阿嫲，还记得我农历生日是几时。阿嫲，是你照顾我长大的，跟你活了二十三年，你真的是个好阿嫲！你看着我慢慢长大，我看着你慢慢变老。这岁月好残忍哦！我有时会害怕哪天阿嫲不在了，我的日子一定很难过！阿嫲一定要长命百岁哦！我生日愿望哦！

从小照顾我长大的阿嫲！

四月二十一日，我的学生帮我庆祝生日。那个星期六是补课。又收到了礼物！更感动的是，他们买了三粒蛋糕帮我庆祝！好夸张哦！他们都跟我好好哦！但他们太活泼了！太难控制了！我有时不知道要骂你们还是疼你们好一点！但你们疼爱老师的心意我看到了！你们太可爱了！

 三粒蛋糕！！哇！！

切蛋糕咯！

学生忙着放蜡烛，结果没打火机！==

下午，我又跟朋友及学妹去ksl看titanic, 但竟然没什么位子了，只好没看！过后我就去跟朋友一起去看品冠的签唱会！品冠变成熟了！在签唱会中，我还赢得了一张品冠海报，不容易啊！

品冠签唱会！

看完过后，学妹叫我选拖鞋，她们应该是想要送我生日礼物。好吧！就一双拖鞋，不会花她们很多钱吧！没想到回到宿舍，我的小宁宁又给我两双nike袜子！哇！不是吧！你们真的是！！！啊！无言！但还是感谢。。-燕彬，侨欣，Ah Bong! 

有nike了！哈哈哈！Like!

突然，听到敲门声，跟我同天一起生日的学妹-Jesslyn Teh竟然送礼物来给我！哇！感谢啊！！祝你生日快乐哦！

Jesslyn 送来的衣服及生日卡！

四月二十二日， 我的学妹-Ah Teh托燕彬送礼物给我！都是巧克力啊！哇！我爱吃但我最近好肥了哦！但我会一点一点慢慢吃！真的很谢谢大家给我美好的生日！这是我二十三年来，最多人祝福的一年，我幸福满满因为有你们！

甜甜的巧克力，甜甜的生活！

对了！老爸，你去美国的时候生日，我没办法祝福你！但你来找我们时，我带你去玩！哈哈哈！我长大了！带老爸去玩了！我很开心当你的孩子！我爱生命！！我是幸运又幸福的人！！我有那么多爱我的人和我爱的人！！难怪我姑姑每天叫我看大爱！== 感谢大家让我有个难忘的生日！

0 My dearest brother....

Tears flowing. Heart cracking.

I am so hurt today.

Why this thing happen again?

Unbelievable! Unacceptable!

I try to accept, i try and i try!

But i just can't! I try to stop crying!

But i just can't! Why happen such thing?

One is my brother, one is my ....

Brother, you are always my dearest brother.

First, i really blame you, i hate you!

Why you want to separate with her? Why?

Actually, mum has sixth sense knowing that something happen between both of you.

And mum ask me whether i got chatting with your gf.

So, today i ask your gf what happen?

She says both of you have separated 3 months ago!

Why? Why you never tell us?

You have to face it one day too!

I blame you because you don't take good care of her, you hurt her!

I hate guy doing such thing! No responsibility.

Ya. Suddenly i hate you so much! Hate!

Where is my good er ge? Why do such things!

Brother, when i message you and know the truth, i cry again.

I know what you are thinking about.

I hate myself for blaming you.

I never think about you.

You are the best among all the siblings.

You have a strong heart to win and never want to lose others.

In house, you are the one get full As in UPSR, PMR, SPM.

And now you get the 1st honor in your engineering.

Everybody proud of you. You want to prove that you are an useful people.

Dad and mum always hope you can get the best achievement.

Ya. You did it successfully.

Now you earn a lot but you never happy.

Why you got things you never want to express?

I am your sister that can help you to solve some problems.

You are the best in the house. But i am the worst in the house.

Then my feeling? I got my own stress too.

I try to believe that even my academic is not good as you or sis or bro, I can earn a lot of money too.

Don't force yourself to make everything perfect.

You must think of yourself before you think of others.

Because of the responsibility, Because of the family, Because of her father's death

you try to recover with your gf and try to get back the feelings.

But now you are not happy at all, so you just let her go.

You tell me you scare to come back home because you disappointed the family.

This is the first time i see you are so worried.

I tell you, "You must return home, family wont leave his son alone".

Just now i call mum and she tells me that you cry nonstop.

I know your pain, your sorrow.

Brother, you make me cry and your gf did too.

I appreciate the relationship between us and i don't want to miss it.

But now everything spoiled and can't get back anymore.

If recall back the memories, i will cry again.

So many laughter with her, So many memories!

I can't forget it at all. I treat her as my sis.

I hurt so much today. And mum too.

She can't sleep tonight but what can i do?

Dad too. He is sick but i can't do nothing too.

I want to go back! Bro, i want to meet you!

You are my dearest brother ever after.

Don't fall down first k? We give you support.

Now you are lonely there and you always keep your things alone, nobody care for you.

You go overseas nonstop but please care for yourself k?

I don't want something happen in the house!

Mum and dad are old enough! If you fall down, dad n mum too.

I can't save so many people in one time.

Please! This useless sister hope you can think for the family k?

I don't want anything anymore. I don't want you to sponsor me this and that.

I just want my brother back. I don't want to lose you.

So pain today. I want you happy with us again.

Brother, i know you want perfect but you can't do everything you want.

You already make us proud. Dun force yourself again. Please!

You have succeed in your career! If you want to earn more, no need!

I am going to earn money soon. Just wait for me!

Wait me back. I give you my my-vi car to drive.

I bring you to eat supper, i bring you to anywhere you want to go.

You tell me before, when i am graduated, you will bring me to Singapore.

So, don't fall down. I won't talk about your relationship anymore.

I just hope everything will be ok.

Tissue is not enough for me anymore. Brother, i love you and i miss you!

0 New design..

Oops! Why my background is in pink?

Unbelievable! Actually i hate pink!

I really hate pink. But now i still can accept a little bit.

Because the header of the blog is quite blank, light in colour.

So i try to use blue in d background but it is not suitable.

So i use pink.

i always want a fresh look for the blog.

So i change my background twice a year.

I easily hate something and i like new things.

So i always waste money on buying this and that.

I like original things like Nike.

I got sport shoes for three hundred something. I got bag. I got shorts! I got bottle!

Oops! i have to stop it!

Anybody know why i hate pink?

Because it looks so girlish, and so many girls like it.

And i always want to be special and i like peace.

So i prefer blue in colour. It gives me energy sometimes.

I love blue if compares to others.

These few days i write my blog in English.

Because i like English and i hate Chinese actually.

When i am Form 4, i write an essay and that essay gets high mark.

The teacher don't believe at all and ask me whether i copy from where or not.

From that day on, i really hate people who look down at me.

I hate Chinese and she makes me hate Chinese more.

I like to watch Western Movie if compare to Taiwan Movie or Hong Kong Movie.

I always learn English from there. And i enjoy watching it.

Even the western movie are much more rude words than others.

Such as "Fuck", "Suck", "Screw up". Or many sex scenes.

This is the western style, western cultures.

Sex is not a dirty thing actually.

Nowadays, many students are curious about this things.

Some boys maybe want to try what is that because they feels strange enough.

So, if newspapers write "Students get molested or raped in younger age", i don't feel strange at all.

Parents need to play the main role to give the right concept to their children.

They need to know what is sex and protect themselves.

So, parents can't blame them if parents never tell them about sex.

Oops, i am out of topic!

I like my blog in a simple way.

I like to find out what decorations are better for my blog.

I like to explore new things and i like to learn something new.

Do you ever run out from house? I did

Do you ever do direct sales and introduce the products to strangers? I did

Do you ever give speech in front of your mum and show love in front of hundred people? I did

Do you ever angry your headmistress in front of her? I did.

I do so much crazy things! i am totally too bad! How come i can be a teacher?

I also can't believe at all!

My dad hopes i can be a teacher, and now i fulfill his dream!

And why my blog got so many gadgets?

I think that gadgets are quite cute!

It gives me joy and it makes the background more colourful.

Do you think so? Hehe..

Don't want to introduce my new design anymore.

I am gonna study now! Miracle happens!

Wow! If you like my blog, just come here and we make friends!

Hehe. Good luck to everybody!

0 ^Friendship^

Do you trust friendship?

Do you know what is friendship?

I do. I always treasure it!

What is friendship?

Some people won't know the meaning of friendship.

They think friendship is friends are people you think are friends,

but they are enemies with secret identities and disguises who hide their true colours.

They never trust friendship!

From the day i know what is friendship,

i appreciate so much the relationship between friends.

So God give me so much experience in the friendship.

Sometimes, He give me joy. Sometimes, He give me pain.

But this is only the process between friendship.

We can make difference among those friends.

Nobody is perfect!

Yesterday, i tell one of my friends.

I say "i love you". She can't accept.

I know that. Because eastern people are more traditional and not so opened.

"I love you" has many meanings actually.

Love you as family, lover, fiancee or friends.

Sometimes i envy those western people, when they greet each other, they will hug or kiss each other.

It shows a kind of warm or love.

When i am in Penang trip, i meet my old friend!

I do miss her. I think we never meet each other after form 5!

She is my best friend, and totally when we meet each other, we still like before.

We laugh and tease each other. There are a lot of memories between us that will never be forgotten.

But the words from her i remember most is when she notices me, she say "Can i have a hug?"

Wow! Is such a warm hug i never had.

When i in home, i seldom hug my mum, but once i hug her, i feel protected.

And i seldom say i love her, because sometimes the words difficult to express. Is too deep in the heart.

But once i message and tell her, she replies " i love you too".

That's the time i touched and my tears start unable to control.

Even my sis, i want to hug her, and she says "yurks!", ask me to go away.

It shows a kind of love, but for her its unacceptable!

My bro shows his love by buying the things i want! Laptop! He sponsors! Touched!

I have a happy family. My dad, my mum, my two brothers, my sis and even my grandma. They love me! And i love them too.

Too long didn't take picture with them. T_T.

Gonna go back soon and i will remember to take once!

And even friends too. We give them a warm hug, it shows love.

Don't be stingy to give other's love.

A hug is worth than thousand words. Remember that.

Hug is not kind of sex or need to be used when sex.

It is just a simple hug. NOT sensitivity.

I have a lot of friends. Can you imagine?

How i do this? Why i can have it? Just show a simple "LOVE"

Do you hear before? To be depressed is to be lonely; To have a friend is to be happy.

I did it. And you? Still don't want to show love?

Let you see my crazy friends!

But we seldom meet because all of us have to further our studies in different kind of places.

I have a lot of friends and i also have a lot of sis around me!

Love are surrounded me and i feel happy enough!

I treat many people who smaller than me as my sis even i have a stupid sis!

They are the people i love most! I was greedy enough to have them!

My sis is the people who close to me most. We quarrel, we laugh, we fight!

I know her well indeed. She is the most cruel sis in this world.

If people who don't know her, they will think she is good.

If you know her deeply, you sure will kill her and chop her into pieces!

If i am a killer, sure i dare to chop her!

Nowadays, i am closer to this sis.

If u first thinking about her, you will say this people is not easy to close with.

Ya. That's my first thinking!

But now i realize that she is much more crazy than before.

And she is quite good enough because she treats me good even we always quarrel.

Last time, she is negative on her thought and now i know why she think negatively.

The surroundings influence her and maybe she is still young to solve the problem.

Another sis, she is talent in chinese yoyo. But i am not because of that interested her.

The 1st time i see her, is the time got people bully her.

From that time, i start to message her everyday but we are not couples.

We just easy to talk with and the feelings are nice!

Sometimes maybe misunderstanding with each other, but now we settle it.

And i hope i can have chance to love her more.

Sorry for that day i scold you. I just care about you and hope you will know one day.

And another three, i treat them like my sis too.

They are good and easily bullied by me. Haha.

But three of them gather together and try to bully me, sure i will lose!

Sometimes, they will find me. But after chatting, sure i can't get back to the room because they are too talkative!

So, nowadays i just stay in my room! hahahaha!

I try to message them but their phone number are 017!

I cant afford to pay that! So expensive per message.

Another sis, she says i never care for her! I really.......

If you are with her, you will know the feeling.

She talks nonstop and i don't have any freedom!

But she is nice to others and she is too naive!

She always think from others but never think of herself.

Do you see her laugh before? or cry before?

She is the person lack of protection!

And these few days, i always message a girl.

I scare she will think i like her because i find her always! Oops!

I want to treat her as sis(妹妹), but she wants to be sis(姐姐)!

Crazy human i think. She always make me nothing to talk with.

She is too brilliant. She can catch every words you say and make you shut up!

And she is the one always no reply my message! No manner at all!

Hahaha. I think she won't mind what i say. Because this is the truth!

Never take picture with her so no picture. But hope got chance to take with her!

If you don't mind, be my sis! I have so many sis to love!

I have a sis who love me too!

She gives me an original cd of Jess Lee which import from Taiwan!

And she always brings me here and there! I love her! Really!

The ring on my finger is the present from her! I miss you, Lanice!

Thanks everybody! Thanks sis!

The best gift i ever had!

I don't have lover but i have so many friends around me.

I don't scare i will be alone.

I just know they are the most precious thing i never had!

Thank you everyone who appear in my life and give me the best memories!

Sorry if i don't write about you because i have too many friends need to appreciate it!

The world is so complicated but all of you make my life wonderful!

Friends, when you face the problems or obstacles,

Sadness, grief or even doubt,

When you mess up all the things that you planned on,

just turn around and look behind you.

From the place you stand,

Look for me through the shadows,

i will lend you my hand.

I will give you my shoulders,

I will right beside you

Though it will be a thousand years!

Friendship is the golden thread that ties all hearts together.

Don't walk on front of me, i may not follow~

Dont walk behind me i may not lead~

Just walk beside me and be my friend."

0 把最好的留给家人！

累了。困了。想歇一歇。

给我一点空气呼吸一下。

请不要逼我逼得太紧

毕竟我也是人。

我只想给自己权力去选择

我知道之前我做了不应该做的事,

我知道我犯了不该犯的事

但如果没这么做，你们同样推我去死

我只能为自己找个后路。

请容许我绝点，我真的看开这世界

你对人家好，人家只会爬到你头上

我真的有时帮累了，帮了还惹上不少蚂蚁

我要扫掉那些蚂蚁还真难。

我知道我讲话一向来很直，

很多人接受不了这一套

我自己也接受不了

如果要我改，我宁愿不说话，

因为本性难改，改也是一样。

请不要考验我的忍耐度

我发疯时什么都做得出

我真的不想顾虑那么多

因为换来的只有自己的委屈

不要觉得我没脾气，我不会怎样

就考验我的极限。我只是不想把痛苦建立在别人身上！

以后你们的事我不再插手

你们要怪我也好，利用我也好。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

妈，我真的好想回家。

我真的好累。不知不觉也快半年了。

要等也要等到十一月二十五才能回家。

想想为什么间隔我不回。

因为你们要付我们两姐妹的费用。

加上老爸也退休了，妹妹也好想回因为她放假两个星期

所以就给她回了。这样也好，妹妹可以回去看你们

以前在家，要什么有什么，

现在什么都得靠自己，累了也没有依靠。

事情无法解决了，还是要想办法解决

原来长大是那么辛苦的。

谁想长大？谁想面對这一切？我觉得没有！

当我每天听到别人埋怨的时候，我心想没人要这样的生活

别人看得到我活得开心，我的确很开心

因为我的心态是过了算了，没必要计较

但有时心很痛，要发泄也没地方发泄。

有时妹妹总会突然发脾气，然后乱乱骂我

其实我自己也有不开心的事。

我告诉妹妹你很累是吗? 你把脾气发泄在我身上我也是很累的

我哭了。因为我真的好心痛。我不喜欢莫名奇妙给人家骂

我妹说“原谅我，我知道我不好”。她说她在这里好压力

难到你们都有，我没有吗？

我只是看开了,我只是觉得开心活着，那不是很好吗？

再多的难题是上天给的考验，不是吗？

妈，你知道吗？那天的手球比赛，我告诉你我脸被打到

我知道你很担心，一直问我有事吗。

对。看了医生，医生说脑震荡，会维持三四天

你骂我，叫我以后不要打这样的球。

我只能说我太幸运被球打中。

现在我不敢告诉你，我还再痛。我觉得已经是内伤了。

从喉咙伤到脑袋，真的是辛苦死了！

我不知如何开口告诉你。

我每次不懂花了你们多少钱。

保险也是我最快买，难怪婆婆说，以后我要还比较多。

的确，以后我一定要孝顺你们。

之前的不孝，我很后悔。让你们受多了委屈。

只怪我不争气，只怪我耳根软。还好我会清醒！

婆婆老了，不知还能陪我们多久

真的好想回去看看她。

大学读了好久，没什么时间陪你们

真的是受尽了不少委屈。

现在只能让你们不担心。这已足够了。

也谢谢你们让我有个幸福的家庭。

我不缺爱，不缺钱，什么都不缺。我缺的只是时间。

你们老了，我也长大了，要学会独立了。

上天给我机会活着，我就该做有意义的事。

这才是人生。现在我只知道做好事，存好心。

家人都做善事，我也要。

活了那么多年了，我该想想自己未来的路了。

我想当游泳教练，行的通吗？

希望能，希望有这个机会！

这样我就会赚更多钱，带你们去玩。

你们要好好照顾自己，这样我才能带你们去更多地方。

好久没一家人出去玩了自从去中国香港后。

妈，我知道你等不及了。要我赶快出來赚钱。我会的！

如果能，我会继承你的保险。

爱家人多点吧！父母等不及我们出來孝顺他们了。